Reflections from 2017: Fresh Starts and Year Filled with Richness and Beauty

2016 was all about letting go of people and situations that didn’t serve me.  It felt like a push and pull year.  It was an emotionally intense year where I nearly cried myself to sleep every day.  I’m proud that I was committed to trusting the process and surrendering last year because now I know why it happened.  2017 was a completely different year.  A fast, active, social year filled with new beginnings and light in my life. 

2018: A Magical Year Filled with Romance and Love

2018: A Magical Year Filled with Romance and Love

A fresh chapter has arrived and the pages are turning.  Since I am knowledgeable about astrology and numerology, I knew 2016 was year 9 of my 9-year cycle.  It made sense because that year was about completion and endings.  Whereas 2017 was about fresh starts and beginnings.  2017 was year 1 of my brand new 9-year cycle.

Because I knew this, I knew the beautiful, sunny energy of Year 1 would support me in anything I wanted to do and initiate this year.  I consciously used this magnificent, bountiful energy to transform the two areas of my life that needed the most transformation: MONEY and ROMANTIC LOVE.  

Falling in Love with My Money…

I spent the first six months of this year working with a Money Coach deeply unraveling my beliefs and patterns surrounding money and understanding with confronting clarity the emotional reasons on why and how I handled my money the way I did.  Why I made the decisions I did.  I learned how I didn’t love myself very much and gave my power away to others.  Slowly, piece by piece, I gave the power back to myself. I worked on clearing my credit card and started to put a portion of my earnings into savings every month.  I realized that taking care of money and my finances is just as important and part of self-care as baths, massages, etc. and an act of deep self-love.

For the FIRST time in my life, an emotional energy and deep love powered my financial decisions.  I knew why I spent a certain amount every month and why I saved every month.  In fact, I renamed my bank account savings to: My Wedding + Self-Love.  Because this is exactly why I’m saving money.  For myself.  For my wedding.  For me.  To show love to myself.

Saving Money is a deep act of self love and taking care of myself.  By the end of 2017, I am really proud that I have completed paid off my credit card.  The past 2.5 years I thought of my credit card every moment.  Now I feel this beautiful sense of relief and pride.  And abundance.  And I also have a financially abundant bank account and never have I before had such a healthy, loving relationship with money.

I deliberately chose to work on the money part of my life first because sexual energy intertwines and bonds romantic love and money.  In other words, the seductive sexual energy creates life and magnetizes the flow of money.  By working on my money stuff, I knew I was working on my sexual energy and romantic love life at the same time.  I noticed how my sexual appeal and magnetism as a woman greatly increased as I did deep inner work on my money.

Romantic Love Experiences

Around March this year, I had an experience with a man which turned out to be deeply emotional, sensitive, and intense.  I don’t want to go into detail, however I will say the meeting wasn’t pleasant and it reaffirmed the deeply embedded subconscious beliefs I held of myself that I am not worthy of true love and that a man won’t stand up for me and want to be in a loving, committed relationship with me.  It has taken months for me to process this experience.  It was a deeply painful experience.  Everything that I felt about myself reflected to me through him.  And I must have been a mirror for himself as well.  I knew I had deeper inner work to do surrounding love.

This experience transformed me in ways I cannot explain still.  I read many books and blogs on romantic love across all topics – sex, commitment, communication, dating, self-worth.  Basically, I learned how to have a relationship and be in a relationship.  Something we all assume will just come naturally to us when we meet the right person or start dating.  We assume that there isn’t anything to learn about relationships because well, it’s not like math or science or English in school.

And I didn’t just read…I did the inner work.  I dove deep into my soul and searched for answers and more importantly, the right questions.  Because all my life I thought being in the perfect, loving relationship was a dream and would fall into my lap only if I was lucky and fortunate.  I wish someone told me that I am responsible and a creator of this relationship.  By first creating a loving, committed relationship with myself and accepting and embracing who I am completely as a person and my flaws and my self-worth.

I’ve heard this so many times and understood it on a mental and intellectual level, though to put this in action.  To do the inner work and take the actions to love myself and create the relationship of my dreams.  That was something else!  It meant facing my own shadows and darkness.  And it was scary and chaotic and a beautiful mess.  And completely worth it.  So after my money work, I continued working with my first coach whom I had worked with much earlier and went deeper in the realm of love, sex, and desire.  I showed up for myself and this work.

Around July last year, I also moved home and this also proved to be the right decision for me.  I was able to save more money faster and since my family lives in a more relaxed town with a slower pace of life than the rest of chaotic Silicon Valley, I was able to seek true joy and pleasure in my life and make time for my family and friends and most of all, my self and my desires.

I created a new in person workshop that integrated everything I learned about Money and Romantic Love and called it Invite & Receive Romantic Love & Money.  I facilitate this workshop at a gorgeous hotel and it is such a pleasure for me to support the women in their romantic love and money areas of their lives.

I ran this workshop twice and the participants had beautiful words and praise for it which made my heart filled with deep love and gratitude.  There was several requests to run the workshop again during the Holiday season, however I decided to focus on slowing down in November and December and enjoying the Holidays.  The Holidays bring up mixed emotions in me, though overall I enjoyed myself during the Holidays.

Moving Forward in 2018 and My Vision

I’ve taken time into January to write this post because I wanted to gently enter the new year.  I wanted to be present every moment of the Holiday season.  Now that I’ve had time to process 2017, I’ve felt into how I want 2018 to unfold.  I let my guide words for this year come to me.  And here they are….ROMANTIC, EROTIC, MAGICAL, SEDUCTIVE, EASEFUL

I want the focus to be entirely on my personal romantic love life and going deeper in my sexuality this year.  I really want to experience romance as I’m a Taurean woman and we love romance and sweetness 🙂  I continued with the word Magical because I want this year to be even more magical than 2017.  2017 was indeed very magical and I want to continue on this same path this year.  Erotic and seductive is how I desire to feel in my sexuality and with a man.

And I also continued the usage of the world Easeful because I want everything in my life to unfold with gentle, feminine ease.  I don’t want to  push and strive to fulfill my desires.  I’ll listen to my intuition and soul’s guidance and then take inspired action.  It’ll be a beautiful dance between doing and stillness.  I want to enjoy the journey of receiving my desires and seeing them become fulfilled.

I am going to continue to work on my money and I want it to feel easy receiving large sums of money and earning money in creative, fun, and healthy ways.  I intend to deepen my now healthy, thriving relationship with money.  I want to feel richness with my money.  The action steps I’ll take is to complete the Modern Retirement Planning workshop, save more money each month, and earn money easily and creatively through my Invite and Receive Romantic Love & Money workshops.

I also know that 2018 is Year 2 of my 9-year cycle which means this year is going to be tremendously different from the past three years that were intense and filled with transformation.  Year 2 is a very emotional, slow-paced, and gentle year yet filled with intensity and sensitivity.  This is the year for me to become intimate with my Beloved and form a deep bond with him.  This also means it’s not a year meant for action or initiating huge projects.  It’s more of a go with the flow year and focus on building a strong inner foundation which will create a strong external foundation.

There will be moments of intensity and I’ll feel sensitive and I’ll have to be patient with myself and other people in my life and take time to connect with my inner stillness.  Keeping this in mind, I feel it’s the perfect year to focus on my health and body.  I’m working with a body coach to feel deep love for my body and feel peace with my relationship with food.  It’s working wonders because I don’t have a love-hate relationship with food anymore.  I approach food from a place of love and practice intuitive eating.  I’ve also starting taking dance classes and working out at the gym.  Instead of going crazy on my exercise routine and pushing myself, I work out in a gentle, loving way that honors my body.

I also do feel the desire to connect with something more than myself.  With God.  With the Universe.  Whatever name you decide to call it, for me, it’s God and the Universe.  I am feeling an intensity to visit Churches, Temples, and other places of worship.  I’m not even sure why.  I do know that I feel the calling and hence I’ll honor it.  Perhaps this is my way to feel calm and centered and peaceful this year as I understand my soul’s plans and learnings.

And most of all, this year is devoted to exploring my beautiful, sublime, erotic, and seductive sexuality.  Embracing all the soft and fiery elements of my sexuality and womanhood.  I intend to feel satisfied, happy, orgasmic, and feminine in love and expressing my wildly deep feminine sexuality with myself and my Beloved.  I want to feel affection and loved and stable and supported.  I’m currently speaking with several sex coaches and determining who will be the right fit for me.  And once I do, I’ll commit to my sexuality by working with my sex coach.  I’ve also started reading several books on sexuality and sex and have an ongoing jade egg practice.  I intend to be committed in a long-term, loving relationship with my Beloved this year and committed to my own happiness and peace of mind.

I hope you have a beautiful, magical, easeful 2018 filled with happiness and do the things and have experiences that bring you joy and surround yourself with people who bring out your best.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

By |2020-05-27T01:54:54+00:00January 21st, 2020|Life Lessons, Ramblings, Transformation|0 Comments

Balancing Self-Care and Creating a Nourishing Morning Routine

I am not a morning person at all.  I’ve been fortunate to hold jobs where my commute was quick and I could get more than eight hours of sleep and still wake up rather late.  Yet my day progressed in a hazy and scattered way.

Honoring Yourself through a Nourishing Morning Routine

Honoring Yourself through a Nourishing Morning Routine

After work, I squeeze in dinner, television, and an occasional gym workout. It is only recently I am realizing the sheer beauty and value of having a morning routine that not only wakes you up in a gentle way, but is nourishing to your body and soul.

Right now, I have the flexibility to work from my home.  It is incredibly wonderful and yet I am being lazy and going through my day unconsciously.

I decided to create a morning routine that feels supportive, feminine, and ultimately joyful.

My Simple Morning Routine

  • Drink a glass of water with lemon squeezed and a teaspoon of honey.
  • Do 15-minute yoga stretches and exercises.
  • Take a shower and get dressed.  Then, make a simple breakfast of scrambled eggs and veggies.

I wanted to keep my routine simple because I’m not a morning person and want to be motivated to do this on a daily basis.  It took some effort and practice to start my day earlier and get into the routine.  I have to say once I got into the groove, it’s becoming second nature.  My body is naturally waking up earlier and my body is calling me to become still and enjoy my own presence.  Sometimes, I’ll also meditate for 10-15 minutes lying in my bed.

Creating a Deep, Strong Self-Connection

I have other family members at home and I love my family, but I need my precious, sacred alone time to relish my own presence and simply be.  I’ve noticed that it’s helping me to get my mind centered and feel connected to my inner self.  It gives me the privacy and space to honor my emotions and feelings and allow what needs to be addressed and acknowledged to rise to the surface.

I’ve never been the person who can cry at the drop of a hat and nor do I cry openly, even in front of my family members or a partner.  As I’m growing older, I realize how uncomfortable I feel with expressing my own emotions, so this morning routine is letting me see myself as a passive, neutral observer.  

Some mornings, I will wake up and feel a tightness in my throat and a nervous energy throbbing in my stomach and chest area.  My morning routine will ease that, but the feeling won’t go away entirely.  I will go through my day (office, gym, etc.) extremely aware and conscious of this energy in my body.

It’s also allowing me to create a stronger connection to my intuition and when I meet people and encounter interesting situations, I find my intuition becoming laser sharp and active immediately.

Time for Reflection

This morning time also has created time to reflect on the day, week, or month.  I take this time to go over what I need to complete and look back on what I am grateful for and how I can re calibrate to make things smoother the next time around to fulfill my intention, project, or desire gracefully.

I also like pondering on the special learnings and wisdom I gained from the experiences I’m having and the projects I’m working on.  It’s not just ticking items off from a To-Do list.  I like to feel in my body how I’m feeling and give space for my emotions.  I honor my body, soul, and emotions. 

I like to connect to my deep feminine sexuality and intuition.  It’s a beautiful, freeing, sensual feeling.  I drink tea or wine, eat good, healthy food, and take the time to go deep within.  At this time, I turn to my journal to document my learnings and the wisdom my body and higher self offers me.

Moments of Peace & Flow Before a Day Filled with Activities

My days and weeks vary tremendously.  I never quite know how my day or week unfold.  For this reason, I like to include some sense of stability, order, and calmness to the sometimes chaotic nature of life.  I don’t have much choice on what occurs at times.  I DO have full control and choice on how I feel.  So I focus on feeling peaceful and centered so my day flows with much more ease.

Do you have a morning self-care routine?  How would you like your morning self-care routine to look and feel like?  Please let me know in the comments!  I’d love to hear from you.

 

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By |2017-08-30T12:25:16+00:00August 30th, 2017|Life Balance, Ramblings|0 Comments

The Power of Release Rituals: How I Let Go of My Novel Lovingly

“Strong emotions such as passion and bliss are indications that you’re connected to Spirit, or ‘inspired,’ if you will.  When you’re inspired, you activate dormant forces, and the abundance you seek in any form comes streaming into your life.” – Wayne Dyer

The first print copy of my debut novel Enchanted Silence landed in my mailbox.  I excitedly took the package and tore it in a hurry.  There it was.  The official print book in my delicate hands.

The Beauty and Power of Release Rituals Allows You to Move Forward with Peace and Openness

The Beauty and Power of Release Rituals Allows You to Move Forward with Peace and Openness

Tears suddenly rolled down my cheeks.  My fingers gently touched the cover.  The book looked magnificent.  A deep throbbing rocked my chest.  My dream had finally been realized.  And then all excitement washed away.

Memories flooded my head of how this book was completed.  The man with whom I had been in an intense relationship with for four years helped bring this book to fruition.  In love at the time, we sat together at coffee shops going through page by page and perfecting it.

It was how I fell in love with him.  Our relationship and him greatly inspired Enchanted Silence.  I couldn’t bring myself to print the first copy for months because it was too painful.  I lived most of the events in it.  I had always imagined we would still be together holding the first copy in our hands happily married.

That didn’t happen.  A lot changed in my life since our relationship.  I went through a deep unraveling and surrendering, peeling away layer after layer to reveal the authentic Priyanka.  I had come so far in my life.  I had finally let go of this relationship and was ready to move forward in my life.

Then, an inkling of courage stirred in me.  I had to love this book as my own child.  And I had to let it go with love and respect and mark official completion of that whole phase in my life.  I had to stop clinging to my past and instead embrace the present and my new future.

I lit candles and played soft music.  I poured myself a glass of wine and took a sip.  I lit a gentle fire safely and burned every page of Enchanted Silence until there wasn’t any as tear after tear rolled down my cheeks.

When I completed the release ritual to let go of my novel lovingly, I sat down in exhaustion.  But something had changed in me.  I felt free.  I felt space in me.  I felt open.  I was ready to turn the page and onto the next chapter of my life.

If you’d like to do a release ritual or ceremony to help you release something or someone in your life, here is what you can do:

  1. Set a morning or evening on your calendar for the release ritual.

I personally love to do release rituals in the evening, sometimes even late in the night.  I’m not a morning person and for some reason, the night feels divine and sensual and sexy to me.

After I go through my day, I find it comforting to complete my day with a beautiful ritual.  I feel a sense of wholeness and deep connection to my spirit and then I go to sleep.

  1. Prepare a loving environment for your release ritual.

I light candles everywhere and prepare a cup of tea to soothe and calm nerves and have a peaceful ritual.  Other times, I pour myself a cup of wine to sip on as I go through my release ritual and give it a more sensual mood.

It all depends on how I’m feeling and I let my body tell me what it wants.  Play music that suits your mood.

  1. Write your intention in your journal.

This is one of the most important steps.  It is essential that you have an intention in mind for your ritual.  What do you want to release?  Why do you want to release it?  What are you making space for?  How do you want to feel when you release? 

When I decided to release my novel Enchanted Silence, I wanted to let go of the novel I spent many years writing and was still attached to.

  1. Write in detail and to your heart’s content.

Write as long as you need to in your journal or letter.  I go in depth about how I’m feeling.  After I have the intention written, everything else flows.  The words come from the depths of my soul.

Let your heart guide the words and your feeling.

  1. Burn the letter in a safe place.

This is the crux of the release ritual.  I burn the letter in a safe place and watch the sheet(s) of paper burn away.  There is something deeply divine about this process.  It gives you a sense of completion and accomplishment.

  1. Celebrate the release ritual and the new space created in your life.

Congratulations!  You have now officially completed the ritual and created sacred space in your life for what you’d like to draw in.  Celebrate what you have created and how you have released it with a whole lot of love and kindness and most of all, respect.

Honor what you have released because it was a part of your life and who you were and has led to where you are today.

What would you like to lovingly let go of in your release ritual?  How do you want to feel afterwards?  What would you like to invite into your life after your release?  Please share with me in the comments.

 

 

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Change Your Inner Story and Transform Your Love Life Immediately

When a relationship of four years unraveled, I fell apart.  I ended up moving cities, quitting my job, and traveling to Mexico.  I had fun and wonderful times in Mexico, met many people, and enjoyed myself.  Yet behind my smile there, I pretended I wasn’t hurting.  I pretended my heart wasn’t breaking. 

Manifesting Romantic Love Into Your Life with Feminine Ease.

Manifesting Romantic Love Into Your Life with Feminine Ease.

When I returned, I didn’t have a job or friends to turn to.  I had after all changed cities and moved back in with my parents where I had no social circle or knew anyone.  All I had was me.

During this time, I threw myself into getting to know myself, even though I was desperately confused and still held onto the hope that I would reconcile with him.

When I was in the relationship, I had forgotten about myself.  What I liked to do and what made me happy.  I did everything I liked to do and tried to heal my pain and wounds.  I immersed myself in my stillness and developed a meditation practice, cooked, went to coffee shops to read romance books like I did as a teenager, and strengthened my relationship with my intuition and inner guidance.

It took around two years to let go of this relationship with a commitment phobic man.  Besides this relationship, I let go of people, events, and things in my life that no longer served me.  Some of this was by choice.  Other times, it wasn’t.  When I didn’t want to let go, the Universe created the circumstances for this to occur.

I started to work again and resume my life again.  I was now ready for love.  I was ready to meet the right partner and build a life with him.

This led me to a journey to learn more about love and all its forms.  How do you manifest love into your life?  How do you have a happy, fulfilled relationship with your partner?  How do you meet your Beloved? 

All these questions tugged at my heart.  The most transformative realization I received was: it all starts deep within us.  I wanted to be in a relationship with a man who was fully committed and devoted to me and our partnership.  I wanted our relationship to be real and vulnerable.  I wanted us to show up and serve each other in an honest way with our hearts wide open and to expand together.

Here are the six steps I took to manifest my perfect partner into my life:

  1. Work on your yourself, (emotional, health, body, etc.) as an act of self-love.

In the two years, I spent letting of this relationship and other changes in my life like moving from our family home of years, changing jobs, I didn’t focus on my health.  I didn’t feel well, so I didn’t feel motivated to work on my body and health.

A pain sprung up in my right feet and I ignored it until I couldn’t wear heels or specific shoes.  Now that I am ready to manifest love into my life, I am going to the gym, eat healthy, and eating my vitamins.

I also worked with a coach on my emotional health and peeled away layer after layer to reveal my true feminine essence and sexuality.  My intention to do these things was so I can show up more fully when love is in my life.  I also did them to show love to myself.

Taking care of your body and emotional health is a tremendous act of self-love and gets you in alignment with your desire.

  1. Write letters to your Beloved/Twin Soul daily.

A beautiful practice I’ve adopted is writing letters to my Beloved daily.  How does this work?  It’s literally as easy it sounds!  I’ve always been big into journaling and writing and I took it a step further when my coach suggested I tried this.  I didn’t heed her suggestion for a good year until when I felt the deep desire to share my life with someone.

I went and bought a pretty fancy journal.  You can buy any kind of journal, however I decided to get a blue, elegant journal that makes it feel special when I write letters to him.

I created time every evening to write to him as if he was right in front of me right now.  I tell him how my day is going.  If I went to the movies, museum, or party, I pretended he was there, too and wrote about what I did with him.  The key is to write this in present tense as if he is in your life currently.

The purpose is to connect with him on an energetic and nurturing this relationship, so when he arises in your life, you’ll recognize him immediately.

  1. Clear your blocks and fears.

This is such an important step!  Often, we go take all the right steps and go to the right places to find love.  We go to the speed dating event and set our dating profile on online websites.  Yet, there are deeply ingrained fears and blocks that aren’t allowing the love you deeply desire to come to you.

How do you clear all these blocks to create that clear channel for your partner to flow to you with ease?  It is about simple and difficult.  I wrote letters to the men who were part of my past.  I mentioned the good times and the pain I felt and especially the lessons I learned.

I created a ritual out of it and burned the letter.  I went through each and every person and experience that impacted my life and told them I forgave them and asked them to forgive me.  This created space deep within me and I had released these relationships and more importantly, released the fears and blocks.

  1. Fill your life with richness and joy.

You don’t need to follow these steps in a specific order or wait to feel joy in your life.  Surround yourself with people you enjoy.  Do the things that uplift you and make you feel happy.  Even if you’re not where you are in your life, find ways to bring more richness and enjoy your life.  Simple things like taking a dance class or visiting a museum or cooking a meal will do wonders.

I’ve started doing the things that I truly love and make me feel happy in my life and in the process of manifesting my Beloved into my life, I also have put myself out there more.  I go to festivals and places that I enjoy where can meet my Beloved.  This is a way to let the Universe know: Yes, I am ready!

  1. Act as if you have received your partner.

Writing daily letters to your Beloved is an effective and beautiful way to act as if he or she is in your life already.  I momentarily do forget and feel he is in my life.  That is the whole purpose!

Take this on to an even larger level.  Do things that will show the Universe you are ready and committed to drawing love into your life.  You can book two tickets to a concert or list a guest for a wedding you are attending months later.  This sends a powerful message to your own self as well and you start to get into the mode of taking action towards this desire.

  1. Surrender and receive your partner.

Lastly and most importantly, when your Beloved does arrive in the physical sense and realm and you recognize the energy, surrender immediately.  Stay in the present moment and allow it to move on its own flow.  Receive him or she with deep gratitude, love, and lots of magic!  Enjoy the journey and your relationship!

 

 

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By |2017-06-25T15:17:38+00:00June 25th, 2017|Ramblings|0 Comments

I Turned 31 and How I Manifested My Own One Bedroom Apartment & Home

It was my birthday on Saturday, May 13.  I’ve been working towards cultivating a healthy relationship with myself so I can have a thriving romantic relationship with my partner. I do know that this manifesting journey started in December 2015. I got a digital course, Manifest More and diligently did every week and applied it to my life. Each week covers a specific area on manifesting: How to manifest money, health, love, creative ideas, and career/job.

Manifesting My Soulful, Peaceful, & Abundant Apartment and Home

Manifesting My Soulful, Peaceful, & Abundant Apartment and Home

Last year, my family sold our family house and it was an emotional time in our life. It wasn’t something we wanted to do and moved into a one bedroom apartment. We then looked for our new home. As my family looked for our new home, I thought that I would move out of the apartment and also find my own place. I had visited several apartment complexes earlier to get into the vibe of what my dream place is like. The timing didn’t coincide then. 

A couple months later after sharing a one bedroom apartment with my parents and dog, my brother visited and randomly said how the apartment we were staying in is great and that I should make it my own place once my parents found their new home. It was like a major light bulb lit up in me. How had I never considered this before?!

All this time, I was looking for my perfect apartment and I was already living in it. Very quickly, my parents found their perfect home and bought it and moved into it, leaving the one bedroom apartment we were staying in belonging all to me. I’ve decorated my apartment lovingly since. It’s amazing how the Universe brought me what I wanted in the most unexpected way.

I remember journaling that my place would allow me to express my full creative and spiritual gifts and that I’d transform my life and do a lot of deep inner work at this home. I remember making a list of what I wanted in my place, price range, balcony, large windows, fresh air, and all of that came true. I’ve started blogging more and interestingly, without trying, I’ve had more people coming to me to request my creative and spiritual mentoring. I never thought this, somehow my own business’s foundation is being set and it all started simply from manifesting my own home.

Since then, I’ve been on this beautiful journey with manifesting that has transformed my life and the creator, Vienda Maria teaches all the principles in such a simple, easy way and her beautiful presence lights up the videos and worksheets. If you’d like to manifest the partner who is right for you, a home, more money, or start a new career or job, remember it all starts from you. From deep within.

 If this resonates with you, click here to get Manifest More and watch it change your life: Manifest More

What would you like to manifest and invite into your life? I’d love to hear from you and hear your desire and story

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

 

 

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By |2017-05-14T18:14:15+00:00May 14th, 2017|Ramblings|0 Comments

Enchanted Silence: Move to The Next Chapter of Your Life By Honoring Your Past and Navigating Your Current Transition with Ease and Flow

I can’t count how many times I’ve been in a transition.  My previous transition had occurred around May 2015 when I quit my job, ended a relationship, moved out of my apartment, and went to live with my parents.  A couple months later, life was pretty different.  I started working again.  I approached my work very differently.

Navigate Your Transition with Ease and Flow

Navigate Your Transition with Ease and Flow

Instead of dreading going to work and keep fantasizing about the future, I decided to stay grounded in the best.  I decided to seek pleasure and joy in my work even if I was doing tasks I didn’t enjoy.  I made a decision to feel love in my body and heart in where I was in life at that point in time.

Every morning, I went to work and took my journal.  Before I started checking my emails, I grabbed a cup of coffee and wrote five things I was thankful for in my journal.  I’m proud to say I did this consistently and still start my day like this.

And I would choose a specific feeling to focus on for the day and practiced feeling it moment by moment.  That’s it.  And then the next day I chose another feeling.  The feelings varied from happiness, joy, peace, to ease.

When going through a transition, it is important to trust the process and let it unfold without any interference.  That means to get out of your own way.  Your mind is meant to support your heart’s desires, yet most of the time our mind creates chatter and self-talk that is not supportive and instead critical.  And your mind will create a bunch of excuses or jump to a conclusion.  Every time that happens, bring yourself back to the present moment and take a deep breath.

Most of all, don’t judge the process and your feelings that arise during the transition time.  Take your time and if you feel resistance or intense emotions arising, then go deep and slow.  Hold yourself dearly like you would to your friend who needs extra support and kindness.

In Enchanted Silence, Shivani decides to take a leave from her office job to go to India for her transition into the internship in Mumbai, India where she would learn about nonprofits and her passion, social causes.  She ends up taking stock of her past and making peace of it and moving forward to start a new chapter.  The whole process for change starts from within and becomes reflected in her external world.

Sensual Practices:  Make time for your pleasure, but go slow and deep when loving your body.  I like to take a feather and brush it against my skin and whole body and feel fully every stroke of the feather.  You may want to stop or become impatient, but stay with the practice.  Do it for at least five minutes and feel every emotion that arises.  This will help you to stay in the present moment and when you are anchored in the now, you will find synchronicity, guidance, and comfort flow to you that will help you to move forward with ease and flow.  It’s a simple, but powerful exercise.

Intuitive Practices:  Get a deck of tarot cards and do a reading for yourself is soothing and can provide you with guidance and simply support you to believe in the unseen and have faith that what is unfolding is for your higher good.  You can even go for a professional tarot card reading or energy healing to deeply support yourself during a transition.  Or open up a journal and write how you want to feel during this transition and what fears are arising and what self-care practices you will take on board for your well-being.

If this post resonated with you and you’d like to move to the next chapter of your life by honoring your past and navigating your current transition with ease and flow, please get in touch with me and schedule time with me to become more Wildly intimate with your desires and goals.  I’d love to hold space for your own deep transformation, dear Wildly Intimate Woman.

 

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Enchanted Silence: Invite More Magic and Money Into Your Life By Letting Go of Limiting Beliefs

The best way to invite more magic and money into your life is by letting go of limiting beliefs.  What are limiting beliefs?  They are the beliefs you have been holding dear to your heart for years and years without even realizing.  Or maybe you do realize it.  As you start to let go of these long held beliefs, you’ll start to notice a shift in your world.  Changes will happen.  Breakthroughs will come at lightning speed. 

Invite Magic, Flow, and Money Into Your Life by Upgrading Your Mindset

Invite Magic, Flow, and Money Into Your Life by Upgrading Your Mindset

In my private mentoring practice, one of the first things I learn about my clients is what their limiting beliefs are.  What do they believe about money?  About love?  About life?  About relationships?

You can do a free hand write or stream on paper and let a couple days go by.  Then, pick up what you wrote and read it.  Notice what jumps out at you.  What emotions do you feel?  How do you feel in your body?  Notice the sensations that run through your body.

Some beliefs you may have about money, love, life in general:  Good things don’t happen to me.  I have to work hard to make money.  I don’t deserve large sums of money.  Every guy I date doesn’t end up in marriage.

Whether you know it or not and whether you like it or not :), these beliefs are literally running your life on autopilot.  You blindly accept these beliefs and never question them.  You don’t even realize that you’re believing them most of the time!

Your actions are taken from this place, too.  When you have these beliefs, you may not even interview for the job you really, really want.  You may not give a chance to the guy you’re seeing who makes your heart skip a beat.  You may not treat your money with respect and look at what you have as a beautiful source of abundance.

It’s perfectly normal to have these beliefs because most of these beliefs stem from society and childhood and the world we live in.  I want you know that you absolutely have a choice to live your life as you wish.  The easiest way to create breakthroughs and lasting transformation in your life and especially invite money and magical miracles is to upgrade your mindset.

In Enchanted Silence, Shivani transforms her life when she lets go of her past and limiting beliefs.  When she chooses new beliefs.  Like she deserves to be happy in her relationship.  She is worthy of doing work that fulfills her.  She treats herself with kindness and takes concrete steps to be happy in her life, all the while with a whole lot of support from Alan Nicolaisen.

This way is easy, however does require work and consistency.  It is a moment to moment practice guided by your feminine energy and intuition weaved with masculine energy-oriented steps and process.

  1.  The first step is to go through the major events in your life and write them down.  Writing this down is incredibly important because many memories and events may be hidden in your subconscious.  Writing them will cause them to come to the surface in this process.
  2. The second step is to go through the events and experiences, one by one.  Read them like a biography.
  3. Forgive yourself and other people if any for these experiences.  You forgive yourself for the belief you had at the time and may still have and the experience.  You let it go.  I make this a ritual.  I I light candles and play music that suits my emotional mood at the time and burn the paper.  Again, this is your letting go and forgiveness ritual, so do it your way.
  4. Lastly, allow your body and mind to integrate.  A day or two or even three should be good.  Sometimes, I’ve needed a full week.  Be gentle and kind to yourself.  You will notice a space being created deep in you and you will suddenly feel you’re not as attached to the belief and story.  This may even feel sad somewhat because you’re letting go the attachment.
  5. Hang in there!  Because then you will write down your new belief and story.  And read it.  Make a ritual out of this.  When you work with me privately, I’ll support you to go even deeper.  We’ll go over how you can exactly weave this into proactive action steps and create sensual rituals and practices to support your new story to invite more money and miracles.

Sensual Practices:  Pleasure is important to cultivate when you want to invite money and magical miracles into your life.  Pleasure helps you to go deep in your body and feel joy.  It lets you enjoy life and you relax and open up.  Do things that bring you pleasure.  And especially make time for your self-pleasure practice.  This may sound strange, yet I tell you this worked beautifully for me.

Before your self-pleasure practice, create an intention that states how you want to feel when you receive more money and miracles.  For example:  I am worthy of receiving money with ease.  Or simply:  I am worthy.  Love yourself during your practice like you would to a lover.  Sexual energy is life force energy and it sends a powerful message to the Universe to support you in your intention.

Intuitive Practices:  Create pockets of stillness in your day to day life so there is space for your inner guidance to flow to you.  This guidance will tell you what next step to take.  Meditation may be the way to create this stillness, yet this is not the only way.  It may be exercising or napping or cooking helps you to be still better.

If this post resonated with you and you’d like to invite more money, magic, and miracles into your life by upgrading your beliefs and mind set, please get in touch with me and schedule time with me to become more Wildly intimate with your desires and goals.  I’d love to hold space for your own deep transformation, dear Wildly Intimate Woman.

 

 

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By |2017-04-20T16:42:13+00:00April 20th, 2017|Desire, Ramblings, Transformation|0 Comments

Enchanted Silence: Cultivate a Stronger Relationship with Your Intuition So You Can Hear Your Inner Guidance with Clarity

I go on and on about intuition because it truly is life changing when you learn to listen to your intuition.  Every single person on this planet has access to their intuition.  It’s a river of deep wisdom that runs through you and your body.  The question is whether you let yourself listen to it. 

Strengthen Your Intuition to Deeply Connect to Your Inner Guidance

Strengthen Your Intuition to Deeply Connect to Your Inner Guidance

And if the answer to this question is yes.  Then the next question is: How do you listen to your intuition?  That’s a great question.  The answer varies for everyone.  In short, the answer is that you must create the right conditions and environment in order to strength your relationship with your intuition.  In order to listen to your heart’s inner guidance.

Have you planted a plant or flower?  Do you remember giving it the right amount of sunshine, water, and space to blossom and flourish?  There were days when you had to actively pour sunshine, water, and whole lot of love and attention?  Other days, you stepped away and let it do its own magic.  You couldn’t see the magic, but it was happening under the soil in the roots.

In Enchanted Silence, remember when Shivani decides she’s done listening to her aunt Anita, ex fiance Shaan, and everyone else.  She decides she is ready to listen to her self.  To listen to her Enchanted Silence.  In other words, her magical intuition.  That is when her life begins to transform.  Her relationship with Alan Nicolaisen flourishes.  She gets the courage to speak up at her work.

Intuition is very similar.  First, you make the clear choice you’d like to listen to your intuition.  Once that choice is made, there is some cleaning up and decluttering to do.  Chances are the environment and conditions aren’t perfect.  You haven’t been listening to your intuition all this time or even for several years, so it’s going to take some proactive, action steps to get there.

Stillness and space is one of the best ways to access your intuition.  When I speak about creating the environment for your to listen to intuition, this is what I mean in actual, practical steps:  Clear time in your schedule and have space in your day to day life to be with yourself.  To simply be.

Last year, when I was going through my unraveling process where I had to surrender, I knew there was something transforming happening behind the surfaces.

Even though there was much letting go for me to do, the only way I could truly embrace my surrender and letting go and process it fully was to have time and space to do it.  

I couldn’t be too social and go out.  It was me putting my head down and feeling everything deeply.  Allowing myself to heal with this gift of time and space to myself.

My body responded in a similar way.  When I made myself be more active and get busy, it just didn’t want to or let me.  Perhaps you’re not going through a deep unraveling process like I was last year, even then it is essential to create the space and time.

I definitely understand the busy time we live in, giving time and attention to our jobs, relationships, and friendships.  Then, wake up 30 minutes earlier than usual and allow yourself to lay still on your bed and become aware of your thoughts.  Set time aside for prayer or meditation.  Or keep one day on the weekend where you spend the day with yourself and do things that fill you up with joy.

I find the best practice for me is to stay anchored in the present moment.  I let the moment dictate how I want to flow and allow my intuition be my inner compass.  My intuition carries two different flavors.  It carries information to me in a light, breezy, gentle way.  It comes and tickles my body and soul and I flow in the direction of the guidance.

Other times, my intuition is persistent and tugging at me to take a specific action or give my attention to something.  I try to ignore it and it gets louder and louder, so I end up doing what it asks me to.  I do want to add that yes, listening to your intuition leads to beautiful creations, actions, and moments.  It makes sense afterwards why you felt called to listen to your guidance.

There are also several times when you feel compelled to do something and it doesn’t lead to a pleasant or desired outcome or moment.  It brings up pain or stirs intense emotions within you.  Sometimes, listening to your intuition leads to this and it is still for your higher good.  It’s all part of a grand unfolding that you don’t understand at the time and makes sense later.

All in all, take the time to cultivate a stronger relationship with your intuition moment by moment and give yourself the time and space to listen to your inner guidance with clarity.

Sensual Practices:  I love connecting to my inner sensualist by doing breast massages on myself.  There is a process to doing breast massages and you can do a quick search online to learn more about the technique and process.  It is said much emotion, pain, and energy is stuck in your heart and chest area and doing breast massages often brings up such emotions.  I found myself crying when I started doing them initially, though I cleared emotion and pain in my body and I felt lighter and better.  Either immediately or some time after, I found guidance come to me.  I found my body holding deep wisdom.

Intuitive Practices: 

Meditation is another favorite way of mine to connect to my intuition.  I do guided meditations and listen to simple nature sounds to meditate.  I also even lay in my bed or sofa or sit upright and simply breathe in and out and let the guidance come to me.  To be honest, this is a practice that takes time.  Meditation is just like anything else.  It takes consistency and practice.  You may feel your guidance flows to you so clearly one day and another day, not much comes to you.  When that happens, go about your day and you’ll find you’ll receive answers or guidance several days or weeks later.

I also like to have variety and even meditation gets boring at times, so I journal or freehand write or walk or drive randomly or even go out and meet a friend to get my body moving and feeling joy and I find that strengthens my relationship with intuition in a beautiful, sparkling way.

If this post resonated with you and you’d like to cultivate a stronger relationship with your intuition so you can hear your inner guidance with clarity, please get in touch with me and schedule time with me to become more Wildly intimate with your desires and goals.  I’d love to hold space for your own deep transformation, dear Wildly Intimate Woman.

 

 

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Enchanted Silence: Be More Real, Raw, and Vulnerable and Feel All Your Emotions, No Matter How Intense

Emotions are like the ocean’s waves.  They come in and go.  Sometimes, the waves are huge and come in crashing.  Other times, it is gentle and sweet.  Because of the rather unpredictable nature of emotions, most are uncomfortable with their own emotional nature and cut off from their emotions.  How do I know this?  Because I was one of those people 🙂

Be Real, Raw, and Vulnerable

Be Real, Raw, and Vulnerable

I was very cut off from my own emotions.  I made myself numb and pushed them away in an effort to not deal with them.  I didn’t want to be vulnerable and sensitive.  I wanted to forge forward in my life and career and even relationships.  The funny thing is that our feelings hold such potent messages of wisdom and deep inner guidance for us.  They nudge us in the right direction and whether something or someone is truly right for us.

It’s also what makes someone wildly intimate.  It’s what creates that wild, electric intimacy with two people and propels them into a relationship.  Part of the reason I was this way was because I grew up in a family where no one hugged or kissed each other affectionately.  Now, everyone in my family loves each other immensely.  It just wasn’t said or physically expressed.  This led me to grow up and be quite detached in my relationships with friends and men.  And, most importantly, with myself.

Even in Enchanted Silence, Shivani tries to hold everything together when her father has a stroke and everything unravels in her family.  She doesn’t show her raw, real, vulnerable side to her family because she believes she has to be strong all the time for them.  That any show of emotion would mean a sign of weakness.

Through out your day, pause and ask yourself how you are feeling.  If a particularly intense emotion arises for you, ask yourself these questions:

Can you name the feeling in a word – like anger, sadness, shame, fear, joy?  How does the emotion feel in your body?  What’s the most significant thing that happened to you today?  How can you hold space for yourself and process this emotion?  Take the time to answer these questions to yourself.  Repeated these questions in front of a mirror and see what flows out of you.  Even better, write them in your journal.

Sensual Practices:  Create a safe space and environment for you to feel comfortable to express all your emotions.  Dance to music that moves you and allows you to move the feelings in your body.  I have a jade egg that I’m practicing with and I love it because not only does it allow me to feel sensual, it also releases a lot of pent up emotion that gets stored in my pelvic space.

Intuitive Practices:  Take responsibility for your feelings, emotions, and desires by writing down how you feel.  Do regular check-ins through out the day.  Make this an active practice because you’ll notice how aware you suddenly become of your own emotions.  This is an act of deep self-love and supporting yourself.  They will also provide you with guidance on how to approach specific situations or people or in general.  It strengthens the relationship you have with yourself and creates trust between you and yourself 🙂

If this post resonated with you and you’d like to be more real, raw, and vulnerable and hold space for yourself to feel all your emotions, please get in touch with me and schedule time with me to become more Wildly intimate with your desires and goals.  I’d love to hold space for your own deep transformation, dear Wildly Intimate Woman.

 

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Enchanted Silence: Move Forward from the Letting Go of a Relationship and Start Life Fresh Again

In Enchanted Silence, Shivani is in a relationship with her investment banker fiancé Shaan.  I don’t want to give away the details, her relationship unravels with him when he cheats on her and afterwards, she is faced with the task of processing her pain and moving forward. 

Move forward and start life fresh again from the unraveling of a relationship

Move forward and start life fresh again from the unraveling of a relationship

There are many reasons for why a relationship unravels and when it does, it is a clear sign to let go of the relationship and start life fresh again.  To move forward.

As I’ve mentioned several times, Enchanted Silence is very, very inspired from my own life.  I identify with the main character and there are strong elements of my personality I infused in Shivani.  In my own life, I had to let go of a significant relationship.  It took me time, around two years, to move forward.

I can tell you healing takes time and requires deep reflection and inner work.  It requires major shifts from the inside in order for these changes to be truly life-changing and transformative in your external world.  

It means forgiving yourself big time for what you did do or didn’t do or said or didn’t say.  I remember repeating certain events and things I said over and over in my head about my past relationship.

For my healing process to truly occur, I had to dig deep within and ask myself: What fears are triggered from my letting go of this relationship?  What beliefs did I carry from this relationship?  What stories do I keep telling myself about men and romantic relationships?

The answers to these questions astounded me.  After some deep digging internally, I came up with:

I felt I wouldn’t be able to let go of my relationship or that I shouldn’t because it meant I wasn’t successful at relationships or am a good person.  I also believed that having been with this person for four years, it had to stand for something.  That if I worked harder, then this relationship would work.  I deserved this…to be with a man who couldn’t love me the way I deeply desired to be loved or be committed to.

The story I kept telling myself was that I wouldn’t be able to move forward and start life fresh again.  That I wouldn’t be able to find someone again.  That I couldn’t have a healthy relationship filled with emotional and sexual intimacy and richness. 

Just by writing all this, I can feel my heart and my body respond.  These beliefs have clearly been embedded emotionally and energetically in my body and playing out in my life.

Now try this:  What new story do I desire to tell myself about men and romantic relationships?  What does this new story say about my worth?  What needs to be accepted, loved, and integrated into my full self?  What is an action step(s) I can take to make this story real?

The new story I’d like to tell myself: I absolutely deserve and am worthy of such a magnificent, wonderful, support man in my life.  That I have sacred union with him and have a beautiful, healthy relationship that is filled with beauty, grace, forgiveness, trust, and lots and lots of sexiness.  I am worthy of this and welcoming tremendous amounts of love and abundance into my life and our relationship is  a reflection of this deep richness.  And I too, am a sexy, beautiful, marvelous woman.

I must accept that I’m not perfect always.  That I can be stubborn at times.  That I’ve made mistakes and have not loved myself completely which reflected in my relationship with myself and romance.  I forgive myself for all this and starting this very moment, I love myself wholly and even love myself during all the moments I didn’t feel entirely beautiful and whole.  I am enough for who I am.

The action step I can take to make this story real is to put myself in the dating scene again and meet men and as I move through this process, I feel genuinely whole and enough as I am right now.  And that I can pursue my passions and have fun and feel deep joy in my own life by going for massages, festivals, meeting friends, and doing everything I love to do that makes me me.

As you can see here, I took it upon to change the story to a new story with new beliefs that serve me and support me as I move forward in starting life fresh again.  As I wrote this, I literally felt my body and energy changing to the words.  It was transformative!  And of course, this was simply a glimpse into the process.  There is more deep inner work to do.

There are some beautiful sensual and intuitive practices to combine with this that will support you to facilitate your transformation process faster.

Sensual Practices:  Create a sacred self-pleasure ritual where you connect to your soul through your sexuality and allow more pleasure into your life.  This practice is customized to whatever you’d like it to be.  The whole point is to have an intention and do this daily as a way to deeply love yourself and become more acquainted to your womanhood.  You can go for massages and dress up in ways that make you feel feminine, soft, and sexy in your day-to-day life, not just parties or special events.  Again, do what makes you feel like a sexy, beautiful woman.

Intuitive Practices:  Process all your feelings and fears and even excitement that arises about starting life fresh again.  Write daily in your journal.  Keep it handy when you go to work or by your bed.  Allow yourself to cry and laugh freely and when and as you wish.  Become crystal clear how you’d like to feel in your new life and whether that includes moving forward with a new relationship or you wish to simply spend time with yourself.

Are you in a similar situation?  Are you looking to move forward again?  Would you like to heal your wounds and become a brand new transformed woman?

If this post resonated with you and you’d like to move forward and start life fresh again from a relationship’s unraveling, please get in touch with me and schedule time with me to become more Wildly intimate with your desires and goals.  I’d love to hold space for your own deep transformation, dear Wildly Intimate Woman.

 

 

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