Taking Responsibility for Having Vibrant Health and Loving My Body and All It Does For Me

Dear Reader,

Until this year, I’ve taken for granted how much my body does for me and how much of a true blessing it is to enjoy vibrant, great health and enjoying a beautiful body.  Going through my sexual awakening and personal journey, I am starting to love the body I have and all it does for me.  I look at every part of my body with awe.  I am listening to her closely.  Listening to the messages she provides me.

It is also this year that the simplest of tasks take great energy for me.  It is the result of work, sadness, and other factors in my life.  When I have to make dinner, I have to push myself off the sofa or bed I’m lying on.  Or even to go to the restroom.  I don’t have interest to go about my daily life.  And this feeling scares me.  I’ve had major meltdowns and mood swings.  I also just feel really scared.  Scared of talking to someone or opening my heart or trusting someone.

I know that life is very precious.  It is very beautiful.  I’m working on feeling happy again.  Feeling these positive feelings again in my life.  I also came to the realization that the corporate world is not for me.  I’d like to transition into a role that will allow me to fully rest my body and do the things I love in my life and focus on enjoying vibrant health.

I read the book Adore Your Cycle by Claire Baker and fell in love with it.  It teaches you how there are four seasons to a woman’s menstruation cycle: spring, summer, autumn, and winter.  I found the book to be captivating and it truly opened my eyes to the role my cycle plays in my everyday life, emotions, energy levels, moods, and hormones.  I can actually accurately predict my mood swings and when I will feel more sensitive.  I highly recommend you to the read this book, dear Reader. 

It will bring a new level of love and awareness to your self-care routine and lifestyle.  You will know when you have more energy and when you need to deeply rest and harness this beautiful information to your creativity, sexuality, and day-to-day normal life.

I am also giving close attention to the foods I eat and consume on a daily basis.  I eat more greens, veggies, and fruits.  I drink more soy milk and green juice.  I eat sourdough bread because it apparently breaks down in our body system and digests more easily.  I used to feel nauseated in the mornings when I woke up and would have to immediately jump out of bed and put something in my mouth.  I felt like I was going to faint if I didn’t eat something.  I felt this between meals, too.  It worried me because I ate food and didn’t understand why this was happening.

Until I observed my body and did research.  I did a juice cleanse for three days and noticed how with only drinking juices and liquid soups, I didn’t have that nauseated feeling at all.  It amazed me.  Then, I realized I wasn’t eating enough fiber and this created that feeling in me.  I immediately started to eat more fresh fruit instead of fruit juice and more green veggies in every meal.  I also drink a lot of fresh green juices I make myself or buy from an organics juice shop.

The one thing that I’m working on and need to greatly improve is to exercise much more and move my body.  I feel lazy and lethargic and it’s something I’d like to do for pleasure and vibrant health.  Dance may become my form of exercise and I’m looking into various dance studios because I’d love to dance.  I’d love to dance well.  Most of all, I’d love to dance from my heart and soul.  With passion and energy.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

 

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My Sexual Work is Supporting Me to Create Passive Income Streams to Embrace Marriage & Motherhood

Dear Reader,

In all my posts I speak about navigating my sexual transformation journey.  Something else this journey has created is my creativity is blossoming greatly.  I feel ideas and visions float into my mind when I’m sleeping, showering, bathing, or being still.  I am learning to cultivate my sexual energy and not release it immediately and let it stay in my body so I can relish it and nourish it and hold space for this life force sexual energy in my body.

When I hold the energy, my womanhood blossoms and my feminine energy becomes stronger.  I become like a magnet who can draw to her what she desires with much, much, much, much more ease and flow.  Rather than hustling or “working hard” for what I desire, I do the energetic work first and then take the right actions and allow it to flow to me the way the river flows naturally and abundantly.  Life is much easier when I flow.

In this way, my creative energy flows the way my sexual energy flows 🙂  I am seeing how money and sex are connected and since my self-worth is increasing, I also feel more worthy to receive money in healthy, loving, and easeful ways.  I am working on creating passive income streams by creating a digital course based on my workshop that was successful last year.

I am in the creation stage of this digital course and I am putting all my love, sensuality, and energy into this course.  It is exciting and I feel filled with joy and happiness when I work on my digital course.  I feel that my creative gifts are worth receiving money for and the money I receive from this digital course I shall save for my future.

I am giving myself the beautiful gift of freedom, space, and joy by creating passive income streams.  I have an idea for a book I’d like to write, though that will be next year.  There is no rush 🙂  Everything unfolds in its own time naturally and magically.  I am willing to trust the divine timing. 

I am also doing this to prepare for the next phase of my life which is a life with my Beloved.  Our beautiful life together where marriage and children occur and I’d like to focus on him so he can show up fully for his desires and dreams and be the leader in our relationship and life together.

With Love,

Priyanka

 

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By |2020-06-12T19:03:12+00:00June 10th, 2020|Desire, Ramblings, Transformation|0 Comments

I Am Finding My Beauty and Sensuality Through the Art of Dancing

Dear Reader,

It’s been some time since my last post.  2018 has obviously been an emotionally intense year and now I feel much lighter and happier.  It is because I took the time to do deep inner work and understand myself and heal my wounds and love and care for my inner child.  I gave myself a lot of love this year.

It is an ongoing journey of course.  It is important to keep taking care of yourself and loving yourself deeply.  I am completing 2018 by signing up for private lessons with a dance teacher. She has her own private dance studio and I am learning Latin and Ballroom dancing from her.

The first lesson I have is learning how to strengthen my core and learn salsa.  It is the basic foundation for the rest of the Latin dancing. The moment I set foot on the dance floor, I felt something.  Something deep in my chest and heart and stomach. I felt a shiver run across my body. I feel my whole body on fire.

I felt alive.  And it’s a feeling I don’t feel much.  I don’t feel it at work or with friends or at home.  It just feels like I’m being myself when I’m dancing.  I feel it’s something I’ve been doing not for years, but for centuries.  I truly deep in my soul and heart feel that I was an actress or dancer in a past life.

Since I was a child, I’ve had visions and dreams of dancing so sensually and beautifully that people would stop and gaze at me.  When I play a song, I visualize myself dancing away and expressing my wildly deep feminine sexuality easily. I have a strong, intense, deep, beautiful, erotic, and sensual sexuality and one of the ways I am able to express it is through dancing.

I’ve been telling myself for some time that I would take dance classes and learn how to dance.  And now I have given myself this loving opportunity to do so. Energetically, I feel different. There is something more raw about me.  I feel like with dancing, I will peel away more layers of my armor and be able to open my heart more fully. I’m a very guarded person and with many walls up, however dancing helps me to reveal more of who I am without saying a single word.

I feel the energy of dancing flowing to my heart and opening me up.  I feel that I too am deserving of much love and abundance in my life.  That I deserve to have happiness in my life and feel deep joy and peace in my heart, soul, mind, and body.

Dancing helps me to build a foundation of self-worth and connect to my feminine energy so I can embody more of who I am as a woman and magnetize to me what truly I deserve and am aligned with.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

By |2020-06-08T01:35:01+00:00May 4th, 2020|Sensuality|2 Comments