I am Destined to be a Fiery, Seductive Actress and Artist and My Training Starts this August

Dear Reader,

I’ve known since I was a child that I was to be an actress when I grew up.  I know it with every fiber of my being and soul.  And this is now becoming a reality.  I notice how the Universe is moving me towards my destiny.  It doesn’t matter whether I want to do this or not.  This is not a decision I can make.  This is my destiny.  It is my calling.  It is my mission on this Earth.  I have come here to create transformation in women across the world through my creative and healing work.  Books, digital courses, writing, and acting in films. 

Becoming Intimate with My Sexuality to Become an Actress

Becoming Intimate with My Sexuality to Become an Actress

I have avoided for years and years to become an actress because I’m too afraid to be seen.  I don’t want to put myself out there.  Because I feel so much that I don’t know how to express it in words.  To my family.  To my friends.  Most of all, to my Beloved.  I have often read of actors and artists who say acting is incredibly therapeutic for them.  They take everything they feel and put it into their roles.  They breathe life into their characters who come alive with such fire and intensity on the big screen.

I remember doing a scene when I was in high school.  I was the geeky, awkward girl in high school.  I remember wanting to be pretty and known like the “cool” kids in high school.  We were asked to do a scene in front of the whole class.  Every single student.  We had to remember the lines.  We had to express the lines with emotion.  We had to become the character.

I honestly thought the “cool” kids would be able to pull it off so well because they are used to being seen and having all the attention.  To my surprise, most people in my class weren’t able to complete the scene.  It took several awkward tries for them.  Some froze before even starting.  When it came to my turn, I don’t think anyone expected anything from me.  I was the quiet, simple Indian girl after all.

I completed the scene in one take.  All lines said perfectly and with emotion and full expression.  It was such a simple scene and only ten minutes long.  In those ten minutes though, I felt myself transported.  I felt myself connected to the Divine.  To God.  My teacher looked at me with shock and so did the rest of the class 🙂  Everyone clapped their hands for me and even though my soul knew it, I couldn’t understand myself.  How was this so easy for me?  Why did this feel so familiar to me?  Why did this feel so spiritual for me?

I have found this very purpose in acting.  To allow me to be who I am.  To express who I am as a person.  To be as sensual and fiery and seductive as I truly am deep inside.  To take all my weirdness and package it into my art.  I am meant to be an actress.  I am meant to breathe life into characters and have them shine on the big screen with so much emotion and fire.

My training to be an actress starts this August.  As soon as I wrap up my sex coaching and therapy, I am diving deep into acting.  I am taking acting courses and training to be an artist.  I am enrolling in a dance studio to learn the craft of dance, specifically Tango, Ballroom, and Latin styles.  I am taking all that passion and pouring it into my characters and dance.

And, all of 2019, I continue my training to be an actress and simultaneously I’ll begin auditioning for parts and characters in films.  I have no idea where this will all take me, though I’m willing to give my dream a chance.  To give my soul a chance to express herself.  To be who I am born to be.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

 

 

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By |2020-07-16T01:50:29+00:00September 14th, 2021|Desire, Life Balance, Transformation|0 Comments

Balancing Self-Care and Creating a Nourishing Morning Routine

I am not a morning person at all.  I’ve been fortunate to hold jobs where my commute was quick and I could get more than eight hours of sleep and still wake up rather late.  Yet my day progressed in a hazy and scattered way.

Honoring Yourself through a Nourishing Morning Routine

Honoring Yourself through a Nourishing Morning Routine

After work, I squeeze in dinner, television, and an occasional gym workout. It is only recently I am realizing the sheer beauty and value of having a morning routine that not only wakes you up in a gentle way, but is nourishing to your body and soul.

Right now, I have the flexibility to work from my home.  It is incredibly wonderful and yet I am being lazy and going through my day unconsciously.

I decided to create a morning routine that feels supportive, feminine, and ultimately joyful.

My Simple Morning Routine

  • Drink a glass of water with lemon squeezed and a teaspoon of honey.
  • Do 15-minute yoga stretches and exercises.
  • Take a shower and get dressed.  Then, make a simple breakfast of scrambled eggs and veggies.

I wanted to keep my routine simple because I’m not a morning person and want to be motivated to do this on a daily basis.  It took some effort and practice to start my day earlier and get into the routine.  I have to say once I got into the groove, it’s becoming second nature.  My body is naturally waking up earlier and my body is calling me to become still and enjoy my own presence.  Sometimes, I’ll also meditate for 10-15 minutes lying in my bed.

Creating a Deep, Strong Self-Connection

I have other family members at home and I love my family, but I need my precious, sacred alone time to relish my own presence and simply be.  I’ve noticed that it’s helping me to get my mind centered and feel connected to my inner self.  It gives me the privacy and space to honor my emotions and feelings and allow what needs to be addressed and acknowledged to rise to the surface.

I’ve never been the person who can cry at the drop of a hat and nor do I cry openly, even in front of my family members or a partner.  As I’m growing older, I realize how uncomfortable I feel with expressing my own emotions, so this morning routine is letting me see myself as a passive, neutral observer.  

Some mornings, I will wake up and feel a tightness in my throat and a nervous energy throbbing in my stomach and chest area.  My morning routine will ease that, but the feeling won’t go away entirely.  I will go through my day (office, gym, etc.) extremely aware and conscious of this energy in my body.

It’s also allowing me to create a stronger connection to my intuition and when I meet people and encounter interesting situations, I find my intuition becoming laser sharp and active immediately.

Time for Reflection

This morning time also has created time to reflect on the day, week, or month.  I take this time to go over what I need to complete and look back on what I am grateful for and how I can re calibrate to make things smoother the next time around to fulfill my intention, project, or desire gracefully.

I also like pondering on the special learnings and wisdom I gained from the experiences I’m having and the projects I’m working on.  It’s not just ticking items off from a To-Do list.  I like to feel in my body how I’m feeling and give space for my emotions.  I honor my body, soul, and emotions. 

I like to connect to my deep feminine sexuality and intuition.  It’s a beautiful, freeing, sensual feeling.  I drink tea or wine, eat good, healthy food, and take the time to go deep within.  At this time, I turn to my journal to document my learnings and the wisdom my body and higher self offers me.

Moments of Peace & Flow Before a Day Filled with Activities

My days and weeks vary tremendously.  I never quite know how my day or week unfold.  For this reason, I like to include some sense of stability, order, and calmness to the sometimes chaotic nature of life.  I don’t have much choice on what occurs at times.  I DO have full control and choice on how I feel.  So I focus on feeling peaceful and centered so my day flows with much more ease.

Do you have a morning self-care routine?  How would you like your morning self-care routine to look and feel like?  Please let me know in the comments!  I’d love to hear from you.

 

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By |2020-07-16T01:52:26+00:00August 30th, 2021|Life Balance, Ramblings|0 Comments

Taking Responsibility for Having Vibrant Health and Loving My Body and All It Does For Me

Dear Reader,

Until this year, I’ve taken for granted how much my body does for me and how much of a true blessing it is to enjoy vibrant, great health and enjoying a beautiful body.  Going through my sexual awakening and personal journey, I am starting to love the body I have and all it does for me.  I look at every part of my body with awe.  I am listening to her closely.  Listening to the messages she provides me.

It is also this year that the simplest of tasks take great energy for me.  It is the result of work, sadness, and other factors in my life.  When I have to make dinner, I have to push myself off the sofa or bed I’m lying on.  Or even to go to the restroom.  I don’t have interest to go about my daily life.  And this feeling scares me.  I’ve had major meltdowns and mood swings.  I also just feel really scared.  Scared of talking to someone or opening my heart or trusting someone.

I know that life is very precious.  It is very beautiful.  I’m working on feeling happy again.  Feeling these positive feelings again in my life.  I also came to the realization that the corporate world is not for me.  I’d like to transition into a role that will allow me to fully rest my body and do the things I love in my life and focus on enjoying vibrant health.

I read the book Adore Your Cycle by Claire Baker and fell in love with it.  It teaches you how there are four seasons to a woman’s menstruation cycle: spring, summer, autumn, and winter.  I found the book to be captivating and it truly opened my eyes to the role my cycle plays in my everyday life, emotions, energy levels, moods, and hormones.  I can actually accurately predict my mood swings and when I will feel more sensitive.  I highly recommend you to the read this book, dear Reader. 

It will bring a new level of love and awareness to your self-care routine and lifestyle.  You will know when you have more energy and when you need to deeply rest and harness this beautiful information to your creativity, sexuality, and day-to-day normal life.

I am also giving close attention to the foods I eat and consume on a daily basis.  I eat more greens, veggies, and fruits.  I drink more soy milk and green juice.  I eat sourdough bread because it apparently breaks down in our body system and digests more easily.  I used to feel nauseated in the mornings when I woke up and would have to immediately jump out of bed and put something in my mouth.  I felt like I was going to faint if I didn’t eat something.  I felt this between meals, too.  It worried me because I ate food and didn’t understand why this was happening.

Until I observed my body and did research.  I did a juice cleanse for three days and noticed how with only drinking juices and liquid soups, I didn’t have that nauseated feeling at all.  It amazed me.  Then, I realized I wasn’t eating enough fiber and this created that feeling in me.  I immediately started to eat more fresh fruit instead of fruit juice and more green veggies in every meal.  I also drink a lot of fresh green juices I make myself or buy from an organics juice shop.

The one thing that I’m working on and need to greatly improve is to exercise much more and move my body.  I feel lazy and lethargic and it’s something I’d like to do for pleasure and vibrant health.  Dance may become my form of exercise and I’m looking into various dance studios because I’d love to dance.  I’d love to dance well.  Most of all, I’d love to dance from my heart and soul.  With passion and energy.

Lots of Love,

Priyanka Yadvendu

 

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